Mistakes && Regrets.

I catch myself thinking of all the bullshit I have gone through. Of course I regret all the mistakes I have ever made. Especially recently. I’ve betrayed so many people, and I know I shouldn’t have done half of the stuff I did. I thought about how big of a mistake I was committing while I was doing it, but I couldn’t stop. My self-conscience is blurred. I want to tell everyone I have hurt I am sorry, but half of them don’t know the mistakes I have done, which involved them. I’m going through a hard time in my life right now. I’m lost, confused, lonely. Maybe that’s why I want to keep doing what I am doing, so I won’t feel “lonely”. I smile all the time because I just don’t want people to know the things I’m going through. After all it is all about what I’m feeling. I wish I had that one person I could tell everything to. But he’s not by my side anymore because I fucked that up to. I guess I just have to move on with life and learn from my mistakes, and hopefully I won’t make many more, and I will finally learn from them.

05.24.12